Want/It/Right/?/

I hate wanting things too much.
It's a dangerous thing to want...
because then you get your hopes up
and then they're dashed.
Most of the times.
Some of the times.
Want becomes need.
Or at least it can very easily become need.

Ugh.
I want it so badly.
This is not going to end well.

You know when something is right
and you just know it's right
because it resonates inside your soul.
I keep second guessing myself.
I think I have pretty good intuition...
I like to think I know when something is really right.
I get that resonating feeling.
I got that feeling when I found out I could actually turn my creativity into a life path.
I felt that way when I applied to OCAD.
I felt that way when I went into the graphic design program.
The problem I have is just because there are so many almosts that seem right but aren't.
So you start to wonder if this thing that feels right is an almost.
Or maybe it's just self-preservation to keep myself from wanting...
from wanting something that is just right.

~TY